What would happen if you gave up being in a battle with life all the time?
Instead of being so sure that what’s happening is not meant to be happening, and certainly isn’t meant to be happening to you, can you allow yourself to accept that what’s happening is, actually, exactly what is happening?
Then, instead of responding from resentment or resignation or frustration, you have a chance of finding out what’s really called for, and responding instead with that.