What are the emotions you deny feeling?
Sadness? Anger? Frustration? Longing? Disappointment? Love?
Sooner or later, if you’re going to participate fully in your life and in the lives of others, you’ll have to turn towards all that of yourself that you push away. You’ll have to bring down the walls that separate you from your own experience, that separate you from yourself.
Every mood arises in one way or another from what matters to you. So learn, gradually, to befriend your sadness, your anger, your longing and your love for the gifts each of them contains.
And then, quite possibly, you’ll find out that every mood, even the most unwelcome, has something to reveal to you. Some new way of understanding the world. Some new way of understanding others. Some new way of understanding what you most care about. And some new way of acting upon what you’re most genuinely committed to in this one life you call your own.